My life.

Fuck the past days and today.

i'm cool with you going out with anyone. no exception to cs. the thing that really hurt me's that you lied to me.

Saw love's ex (cs) just now. he didn't say hi to me.. if he did, i'll wave back. kinda weird seeing him but its quite okie for me. then surprisingly  i saw my uncle haha. i'm very glad to see him =) we chatted and i really hope he can be fine after the operation next month. he seems fine. yeah.

love and i went to changi for dinner. we had crab and mee goreng haha. after that we went to geylang to buy durains for her daddy. on the way back, i asked her a question that had been obstructing me for the past days, or rather kept me wondering. yeah. =) hope she really understand what i had said. yeah. all that i've said and promised, everything's true, so true.

i took a long way back home. maybe its the night that makes me feel different. at least i'm back home safe and writing a entry now. lol. its 1.20am now, was chatting with darling and friends online. =) yd's very funny. he told me that he can tell whether if its a double or single deck bus bye hearing the engine sound. lol. i can't you know. must learn from him some day. haha.

is good to hangout with love. i love her and i wanna love darling more. but i'll have to wait. yeah? haha. its late and time to sleep. good night peeps! =P boon's birthday coming!! maauhahaha.

我要你幸福, 我要給你幸福, 我們可以是幸福的... 我相信. =)

just got home not long ago. bathed already. very tired so i'm going to rest after this.

On my previous bookout, got released early, and so i shared cab with my friends to go home. i dropped at tampines 201 to buy fried carrot cake for darling yeah. i do not know the exact location of her working place ( clinic). so i just walk around the area haha. actually i did ask a uncle for direction but he didn't know where the clinic is, then! i spotted a sign board from far and i saw it. haha.

i thought of giving her a surprise so i went in first without giving her a call. but i don't see her anywhere. so i gave her a call outside. and i went in again, yeah. can see that she's happy. i think. lol.  then after that i walked my way to the bus stop. the weather's damn hot. in the evening i went out to meet sy, jw and leong.

we met up to buy birthday cake for boon. yeap. jw got problem with his gf, thought they'll be good. didn't expect things to turn out with so much problems. hope they can be fine.  bought boon a tiramisu cake. 3kg! haha. hope its enough for the people going for the party.

today's saf day. nothing much happened, just a small parade conducted. i left my hp in camp. wanted to go back to take but i think its not necessary as i'm booking in tomorrow morning plus i can remember number that are important to me. like close friends, family and love. =)

going out later to buy things, then picking up darling later at night for a dinner together. ok! time to sleep. zzz =)

book out quite on time today. it was a good thing. haha. reached home around 11am. had my lunch outside, 2 sandwhiches. yeap. =) took a little nap after listening to some songs and checking of mails. the first thing i did when i woke up was to do a research on vienna and i'm preparing a some infomation about the country and county.

i had my dinner at home. then after that bathed and rush my way out to meet cal, kelly and yd. we're going to jie jie's(shiyun) birthday. cal bought her a mug. hmmm, not really enough so i told her that i would buy her a meal next time yeah and she say she will bring along "jie fu" haha. then if really that's the case. love must follow me go! haha. so she can meet jie jie and jie also can meet her. =)

darling got band camp today. so i never really talk to her today. only like not more than a min over the phone. but its ok. we have many other time whereby we can hangout and talk. today she's really busy. she seems to feel bad for not talking much to me, she don't have to as i can understand. yeap. =)

going for a run soon. and it was good seeing yd and cal. very long never hangout with them. yeah. after tonight. its 69days to ord. yes! =)

i love everyone!! and the most that i love is my love. yes.! =)

going to wake up later at 6am. yeah. went out with love just now. for a meal at East coast park. yeah. wanna eat the "wantonmee" but didn't open. we had something else. mee goreng! haha. then we went out for a tour around katong and geylang. yeah. she wanna see prostitutes. =) lol. after that we went back home as she's tried i can tell. and she wanna do her project. =)

my guardcom got posted to elsewhere. haha! and we got 2 new guardcom. cool. hope life's gonna get better before i ord. next bookout i'll going to shiyun's birthday. cal wq and lin are going too. yeah. and love's gonna be in school for band camp. yeap.

buying boon's cake this coming sunday i guess. for his 21th birthday. on the 4th of july. i got a lot of things to do till next friday. must set piority. yeah.

actually i have lots of things i wanna share and let her know. its all inside my heart. but when i see her, everything's gone. cool right. lol. i guess the reason behind all the "lots of things to share..." is because i misses her a lot. =) i seriously treasure the time with her. there was this period of them i didn't see her for like a week++ a little! yeah. that's damn long can. lol.

i asked her inside the car if puwei, wensi and amanda if they're attached. she say all four of them are single. cannot right! wrong answer. my love is my love. cannot be single. haha! =P i understand having trust is very important for us as we don't really have much time to hangout. but i still love her. so. =) i wanna have a strong base of trust so as to bring us far. to the land called forever and ever. =) and! i'm not interested in G-string ok!. yeap. lol.

okie time to sleep. good night peeps.

went to pick up love at school at 9.20pm. yeap. i love seeing her. and i wanna see her forever. haha.  if she's always so nice haha. so sweet. yeah. to be honest, i can't say i trust a person in a short moment. trust can be build with the help of time. hope everything can run well for us and stuff happening around. next week she'll be leaving for competition in Austrail. i seriously gonna miss her much.

if you ask me why is it her, i guess my only answer to all the reasons in my heart is, actually i don't really know of any word that can express. is just the feeling there that's putting her in me. she makes me happy. yeah. is that simple. i won't do any wrong to her. this can be assured.  i know this can be forever i know. just wondering if she felt the same way too. hmmm..

she love the rings. lols. =P ok! i'm tired. going to bath and sleep now. good night peeps. and love! =)

Shit man, just received a call from camp. this time really kenna. yaocan return arms cb send in wrong one. this time round good game. i'm not hoping for any good. damn it.

this afternoon after i'm home, fm come and fetch me then we go find wl and zh, we went to ms to buy things and walk around. just to hang out yeah. then i bought some rings for love. yeah. bet she will love them. haha. (just saw my daddy peeping into my room.) i went out to have a drink and i got choked by the water and i cough all the water on the kitchen floor lol. daddy laugh. zz.

saw marval just now at pasiRis. i was walking down the mrt stairs and she shouted 'weikee!' lol. i bet she was surprised to see me haha. long time never see her already. still so short haha. thought of going for a run now but i think is better if i go run after i'm home from a dinner with love and gdine.

just sent a sms to my officer. yeah. and i told him that i won't let this thing happen again. shit. nevermind! seeing love later. yeah. =)

Yes! that day was great, =) even the rain and the blackout was nice. lol. i'm looking forward for many of this day to come.  yeap. i love my love. she's nice. and i'll be nice to her. haha. good night people. =)

shhhh, its a secret. i've just completed something. i'm proud of it. i won't say anything yet as its for love. =) i got a feeling she read my blog. so i'll have to keep it to myself first. haha.

supposed to meet up with boon and wq, but wq last min say not coming, then boon say we can meet next time and so i end up staying at home the whole day. ok! let me say about my day, book out this morning around 10am. went to pick durians with ah hai, my army friend. yeap. he suggested it as he never pick before lol. so i brought him into the forest to pick. we got a few, around 12 to 14. yeah. i took 6 back and he took the rest. got spider web caught up on my arms and face. i don't like it! haha. but was fun walking around there. sweat a lot. yeah. after that we both took cab to get home.

mummy washed the durians as its kinda 'dirty' lol. and when she was trying to open them up, i laugh haha. because i find it funny when mummy was trying to force the durain open using a knife. lol. had my lunch at home. then i went back to my room online. just had my dinner. a simple one. i ate the dinner that grandma prepared yesterday. mummy brought home a little. and i had them as my meal tonight.

daddy just reached home, and they're going out soon. i'm not going to follow as i'm full already. =) feel like driving out for a spin later. thinking of asking fuad to tag along. call him later. its saturday and i've no program. a little bored. but quite ok. haha. tomorrow its sunday. another word. its also another book in day for me lol. damn it =(

love went out with her friends today for a dinner as to celebrate her brithday. haha. and i'm seeing her on monday. good. =) got to check which school to study soon. most probably mdis. yeah. then sim. that's what i've on my mind. let see if all these works out well..

i'm bored! must go out later! haha. smile*

fuck man! just now!! fuck!! shhhhhhh... secret. i was damn shit man.. must go pray. shhhhhhhh.. i feel like shouting!!! =X must be careful next time. i swear.

My camp stop people from running without any supervision of safety coverage. fuck. this only affect me and toi. we're the two that only run on our own during rest time. so this morning even if i was on duty last night, still i went for the 'liverun'. i complete the run coming back in 3rd place. sometimes i wonder if fighting for the best really benefits me. i used to always come back first. but this time round wasn't same. i know that my fitness has drop a bit, but still not bad ok! haha. the two that completed before i did, they're of a faster runner. think i should do more running. for ahm and standchart.

got home a little late as we have issues to talk about in camp. nothing much really, listen to songs, play viwawa. rest on my bed. was so bored. the whole afternoon. haha. have been try to write songs for the past 2 bookout. but nothing's out yet. just write for fun. yeah. =) going for a run soon.then later i'm going to return gdine her shwall.

love has a long day too, doing work in school and now she's going to her family gathering doing some important suff, supposed to see her tonight, but this gathering took her away. haha. i'm quite cool, as i think this must be very important to her, if not she also won't miss the date. we have many days and time together. so i'll just look forward to see her. most probably's next week.

well, i'm missing her everyday, guess i'm going to miss her more. yeah. ok! go out for a run now. and i'm proud to say, 78days more to ord! lol.

'i'll always be true.. to you..'

nor feeling sad. just not feeling good. so for this entry i'll blog about the bad things but there'll be a little something nice here and there..

yesterday when i booked in camp, my officer told me that COL tang died. from what i heard was that his cancer was cured once but it came back again and this time round, he left.  this peice of news really sunk my heart. he's always so cheerful in front of us though at times he will complaint about us being slack. but to me overall he's a nice guy. i'm really shocked. these also remind me of my uncle who had his operation yesterday. he had this tumor in his body. he's back home today and i'm glad. but the report will only be out 2 weeks later. i'm hoping for the best.

life is seriously damn fragile.  at times, we people always think that we have more than enough time, so we can take things slow. but this isn't always the case. this isn't true. time is never enough, there're so much things that we can learn and experience, we can't possibily get all of the things in this world in us. not in this life time or next i supposed.

i have this motto that's stamp in me. ' no regrets'. i dare not say everything that i did. i did it with the motto. but at least i'm proud to say that at least i tried with my best in most of the things. i don't like to do things half way or unfinish. even if halfway through, i realise that this thing here's a peice of shit, still i'll seek a outcome, an answer.

i believe everyone hope that things will work their own way, but its not gonna be possible unless its agree by the majority. when there're problems we talk, we don't argue. we understand, and not being stubborn. we're human, we think. i believe by understanding this we'll save lots of time hating one aother, and we can use more time to love and live happily.

i'm a very flexible and i believe i can fit myself in your shoe very easily. but at times when i say something, i must have my reason. if you have doubt, ask me, tell me. i'll clearify with you. because i don't wanna lose someone just because of miscommunication and misunderstanding. as i said before i'm simple. and it is. you can buy this from me.

being sensitive, there's good and bad about it. i love things being run smoothly and nice with no problems. i believe i can make things work well and nice. so trust me. i'm not the kinda person who can accept failure. so everything i do i try my best to look good.

ok! its late its time to sleep. i really hope love can understand everything that i've told her all these while. though at times i keep joking around but my heart is always true. i'm being optimistic because loving somebody is suppose to be happy. not being a burden to one another.

hmmm!! after reading through my entry i felt that i'm a litttle serious! sorry. haha. but all these are true! so just try to understand. haha. we have brain and we think, we have mouth and we talk. so we talk ok!! =) yeah! seeing love on thurs! i think so. =)) good night peeps.

i've been watching this anime 'Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn' for a period of time. its really damn addictive. better than naruto. can't want to watch episode 87 thought i already read the 'manga'. haha.  i'm going to cut my hair today! i wanna that lady to cut for me! hmmm. yeah! haha.

thought of going to town as my sis's ipod is spoilt. need to get it repaired. called love wanna ask if she's free to accompany me but she didn't pick up and i also thought of asking her if she's free this coming sat. yeah. we can go east coast park to cycle. =)

nothing much today so far, just that last night duty was tiring. that's all. didn't get much sleep. i need to go on a carbo diet. yeah. no rice intake for 2weeks! haha. just try ok. =)

love's getting her audition again. this time round she's confident that she can make me. and i share the same feeling too. i'm sure she can make it. yeah. 80days more to ord. that's fast to me. and to many other nsf i guess. haha. haven't been seeing love for days. hmm. okie! now going out to cut my sexy hair. lol. good day! the sun's glaring.

not really tired after yesterday duty. yeap. hmmm, went out to meet seegim and fuad at tampines in the afternoon. to catch the movie ' incredible hulk' and buying daddy's gift. i bought him a wallet as the one that he's using is very old already. then after that i went to E Hub to meet chris for dinner. i was there early, but i was quite okie because luckily i brought my jin's psp along to kill time.

we went to eat at a jap restaurant. we talked a lot. oh ya! haven't say why i meet her, because that time i brought her the muffins me and gdine made. is alot i can finished. so i shared with chris. yeah. and she wanna return me the container. so i suggested that maybe we can meet up for a dinner as mummy and brother they all are at grandma's house.

after that we went for a walk at pasirRis park. then we walk back home together. we only stay blks apart. so its quite cool for us to go back home together.

sing lots of songs. called love to sing her song! and she today went to cine with her family to celebrate her daddy's day. haha. must be very fun. when i gave the present to daddy i can feel that he's quite content. yeah. happy. going to rest soon. but have to bath. good night people. love didn't pass her audition. but i'm proud of her. just proud because i know she put in effort. yeap. no matter what happens i'll always stand by her no matter if she's right or wrong. for now i'll be like this with her. what will happen in the future no one knows. till then i'll always be supporting her.

sometimes i really don't like to blog because people's reading. i wanna say something out in my heart also cannot. scared people will think bad about me. i just wanna say. i just wanna be happy. =) i promise that the decision that i made. the things that i did. i seriously got think through my head. if i say i miss you i really do. if i say i love you i really do. haha. if i say i'm sad i really do(i won't let you know unless i cannot take it). i'm just really simple as i don't wanna make myself complicated. simple is always link to happiness. nevertheless i don't give up easily. that's what i can say.

i'm resting now. its late. i feel like cursing the bad moments. fuck* good night people. =)

Booked out from camp, didn't get much rest at home as jin's playing dota in my room. love's coming to my place at night to make muffins so i have to tidy up the house. after that i went to grandma's place as she helped me prepare the fried rice and noodles for the bbQ in camp.  i brought it over to toi as he's going over first. then i went to giant buying stuff needed for the baking session with love. =))

i rest for awhile at home while waiting for her. i'm surprised that she knows how to come. and i'm happy. haha. is just the feeling of being able to be with her. its nice. treating her good and not breaking promises are not hard as all these comes out naturally. all for one reason. happy. =) its our first baking of muffins together haha. its not bad. i can tell she like it alot. me too.  next time should try and make some other stuff. haha.

i didn't really talk to her today, i know. and i felt sorry. maybe because its at my house. nevermind nevermind. next time we go out i'll sing more  stupidsongs to her lol. received quite a few calls from my friends rushing me to camp. and i know i can't possibly split myself up. so i'm try my best to compromise. =) i know friends and love there is hard to have a balance. but at this point of time, i believe there can be at least something close to blancing. i'm trying okie! not stress over it. i'm quite cool. i believe i can handle it well. i clearly know what i'm expecting.

after sending love back home, i went to camp. hoping to see everyone there. a little had left when i reached. most of them are drunk haha. shit man. i'm trying all ways to avoid all the drinking. i stay till like 12.30am then i i gave arjay a ride back to little india. then from there i went home.

and now i'm home. going to sleep very soon. love's taking her audition later on. i prayed for her. yeah. everything's gonna be fine yeap! its 2am now. =( later going to wake up at 5am. good luck weikee* lol. good night people. =))))

love's birthday's on the 12th this month. but i celebrated with her on the 10th. was fun and nice.. and now let me write about how my day went yesterday. =)

woke up around 10.40am.. went to the florist to talk to her about the flower as i got no time to go down for the past few days. after that i went to look for mummy at ntuc. she was buying her stuff there and i also bought ferrero rocher's choco. i want their wrapper to make roses. after buying stuffs mummy accompany for breakfast but she already ate.

when i'm back home, i on the aircon and i start working. haha. i made 21 roses and it took me 2hrs. another 1hr to make a pouch and writing my letter to her.  after that, i bathed and i went out to orchard to get her present. a anges b pouch. i bought her cake and paragon bakazin. actually there's this one chocolate cake that sx recommend. its something 'amor'. never i'll bring love to eat next time. haha. thought of buying her cheese cake but luckily i made a call to ask about her likes on cake. she prefer chocolate. so! in the end i got a chocolate. haha.

its a long way back home carry the stuff in train. was damn tired. and i tried to sleep but i can't. the stuff with me is kinda a lot. lol.

LOVE just sms! i called her to talk. hhaha.

when i'm home, i keep the cake, and i head straight to my room to rest. i woke up at around 7.45pm to bath and get ready. i went out at 8.15pm to collect the flower and bring stuffs to the bar. the flower, present and cake. then i went out to pick her up at school.

When we're on our way there, i gave her the flower i made and the pouch. i'm happy that she's happy. haha. i think she said around 20times of thank you in total yesterday. haha. when we're there at the bar. we eat, talk and laugh. was nice. not long the rains kicks in. haha. after the dinner. the staffs working there and the lady boss bring over the cake and along the way coming they sang birthday song. and i started singing too hahaha. and now! the present and flowers were handed over to her. =) the customers wishes her too. she cut her cake and make a wish. YAY a wish! what's her wish AH! i know. to married weikee. lols.

she likes the gift, the cake and even though she dislike poeple giving flowers but i guess last night she really appreciated it. haha. everything was cool except the blackout and power shock due to the rain. =) i not sure what was she doing at the moment when i gave her a brithday kiss. because i was focusing on her. lol. nice and sweet. i really did enjoy myself yesterday. i hope once in awhile we can be like this. not for now or next time. i want this to be forever, forever once in awhile.

i take her home. after that. its still raining but is cool. she need to get up early to bring her 'wai po' to hospital. haha. she stressed on me calling 'waipo' than ' ahma' haha. when i'm on my way back home. the memories of us together really make me smile. haha.

after i parked my car. i bring daddy's working shoes back home. and make it dry. i slept around at 3am. yeah. nevertheless! i happy to be with darling. other than drying up dad's boots. lol. going to sleep again later. good day! muahaha now is love's turn to plan my birthday. bleah.

I just cried.

my day was okie, came back home from camp in the late morning. bathed and online. went out to meet gdine and 3.30pm. collected my driving license along the way from the singapore post office. we catched the movie made of honor. was nice but not really that great. i'm very hungry as i didn't eat my lunch. after that movie, the time was around 8pm. i went to grab some bites at ock. then we head to hunt for my love's present.

i'll be getting her present tomorrow. already had an idea what should i buy. oh! i saw shiyao at taka this afternoon. we talked. after a long day at orchard, i went to her house for dinner. was washing the dishes and her mum keep asking me not to as she'll do it later. but i did all the washing in the end of course. and her mom talked to me when i was cleaning up.

back at her room we called sx to talk. very funny haha. i went back home at 10pm. didn't get any rest and i really felt damn tired. but i know there's one thing i must do before i turn into bed tonight. i need to go check out the place that i'm bringing her.  i'm home at 11pm++.

i told my daddy that i'm going to drive his car out to check out the place that i'm going tomorrow, and he blame me for waking him up. i tried to talk to him, though he asked me to go but i can't because i can see that he is very fed up. i don't want him to feel this way as he is making me feeling bad for no reason. i don't want to make him feel angry. i did nothing wrong. he just can't understand me. when i try to talk to him as i wanna make him understand my situation, he start scolding me. i felt that i've been misunderstood and i don't like the feeling of being at fault. if its mom that i'm talking to. i'll surely talk back as i want her to understand. but as for dad i didn't because i understand his temper. that's why i cried. i don't know what to do when i already tried to make him understand. eventually  he don't listen to me. after that mum step in. things was better then. maybe because of the tears. fuck* i don't like to cry, this show that i'm weak.

went out with jin and i went to check the place. its fucked up. i've decided the place already. i'll just go there tomorrow. damn it. i'm really in a bad mood. hope everything turns out well. i just want love to have a nice night. hangout at the last storey of the carpark with jin after i parked my car. was cooling and the sky's clear. we talked. had some drinks. i know daddy's good. but at times he just can't fucking understand us.

my eyes still feeling a little irritated from the tears. haiz. smile smile! yeah. going to bath and sleep now. its 1.30am good night people.

Sir was asking people to organize a bbQ gathering. and i was telling him who to pick in the end! i got chosen. shit. okie my its my luck. i'll do it since i'm going to ORD. haha. its going to be on the 13th of this month. yeah. this coming friday. i'm going out with gdine later to catch the movie the made of honor. heard that it's a great movie. just asked her to send me the photos we took at my house haha.

supposed to see my love at night but she's going elsewhere. was thinking about where to bring her the whole of last night when i was doing duty. changes made here and there. hope everything runs well tomorrow. going to shop for her present later. hope she'll like that i'm getting yeah. =)

will be having my dinner at her gdine's place after that i'll go out the place mark tan told me yesterday. after blogging i'm going to check out the street diectory. yeah. busy busy. i need to go lots of places that ' i must know'. haha. like fucking holland road, demsey road, stamford road ect.

good day.!

Went out with john and toi to the kbox this afternoon. sing a little songs. haha.. very fun. after that we went back home. love went to the gym in the evening with her brothers . after that i went and fetch her from her house. we went to east coast park to eat. was nice.  then after that we took a stroll in the park, we sat down somewhere near the wakeboarding club. and we talk.

things were nice, the conversation. the moments and feelings are right for a kiss. i don't dare to kiss her abit scared, haha. but i know i love her. and feeling's right and true. i wanna kiss her.  so i did. was nice. now i'm thinking back. its very sweet. i can still smell a bit of her. i hope to keep her by my side and adore her. she's sweet.

My god! i actually forgot to save the chat log between me and her. i wanna keep every part of everything of us. shit. i must do it from now on. its really precious.  got to sleep now.. its late.  good night people.

praypray* keep my uncle save from cancer and any other illness.
praypray2* hope my love do well for her audition and also all her tests.